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Sunday, September 17, 20066:37 AM

i looked at myself in the mirror. and i see a very very pale person who looks like she's going to die. yes, the person is me. tears started to roll as words of "wat happened?" and "no more dieting!" hit me.

this is how it all came about...

went down for my tennis trg. aft a few drills, i can hear myself gasping for breath. but didnt really take notice of it as i knew that there were some phlegm left in my lungs due the recent cough i had. so me and my bro hit, volleyed and even smashed. all was fine and i seemed to be enjoying myself.

my bro had to go, so i was alone doing serves. my shoulder started to ache but i thought it was because of the fact that i havent been serving for ages. at that point of time, i was tired. so my coach asked me hit 6 gd serves and he would let me stop. so i hit one by one. some went in and some hit the net. and as the number of serves increases, my shoulder started to ache more and more. so i told myself, just one more, and all my pains will be over. so i hit the last serve and it went in. i was happy cause i could rest.

then it came the part when i had to pick up the balls. so i picked nad picked and suddenly, i felt a rush of coldness within me. i was pespiring like a mad dog. the only difference is i was breaking in cold sweat. i sat down for a few sec, thinking that it was only because i was tired.

so i started to pick more balls. and then i felt as if i was gg to fall down. the surroundings were moving and swaying like i was on a ship in a thunderstorm. and the situation got worse. my ears were blocked and all i could hear was my coach's faint voice. my eyesight deproved and everything was pitch black. i was blind! i knew that these were symptoms of fainting, so i got the chair and sat down. covering my face with my towel, i wished for the pain to go away. i was in pain and didnt noe wat to do about it.

and then came the miracle! {well,sort of}

my maid appeared. cause she had to pass coach my bro's racket which he carelessly brought up. thinking about it now, i think that this was planned by god. he knew that i was gg to faint and couldnt support myslef, so he made my bro bring his racket up so that my maid will be able to help me. i feel very thankful. although i dunno if it is true or just mere coincidence, but i noe that someone out there is helping me. and ITHANKYOU for that!

so my maid saw me in pain and she used a towel to rub my sweat and head. miraculously, it worked... abit. i felt better, but my eagerness got the better of me. i couldnt walk by myself and had to be supported by my maid. and even so, i was on the verge of falling down. i was very weak! so i had to sit again. and this time, i waited till i could see clearly. although i didnt really recover, i still walked bac home with the support of my maid. i a very grateful to her. THANKYOU(: really appreciate it.

so i went up and this marks the day when i have to stop dieting! i think~ i had to skip tuition and sleep instead. but i couldnt sleep. even if i did, i woke up every 5-10 mins. and i had a spiltting headache. even till now... i really regretted it!!

and so a piece of advice:
dont skip meals just for the sake of losing weight! have a balanced diet and exercise regulary! dont live to regret in the future!!

i wanna thank my mummy too!!
THANKYOU(:
ILOVEYOUMUM(:

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